Towards the Light…

The past couple of weeks have been kind of tough, healthwise.

Towards The Light - mixed media girl painting on 4x4in canvas panel - available as a print

I had to deal with the CFS “payback” after R’s birthday party, the cleaning that involved, four dental appointments for R after he broke a baby tooth (bad momma, how could you let that happen?), and L’s three school assignments.

TowardsTheLight - detail 1 - mixed media painting - depression

When I look back at it like this, it’s no surprise that I’ve spent so much time sleeping since then.

TowardsTheLight - detail 2 - mixed media painting - depression

So, there’s been lots of going back to bed after the kids left for school (zzzzzzzzz).

Lots of asking my mother for help – she did the school run for me, thank goodness.

And lots of feeling frustrated and scared because I haven’t felt this way since last year, and I was afraid that I was going to have a relapse & go back to being useless again.

TowardsTheLight - detail 3 - mixed media painting - depression

Thankfully, I’m feeling a whole lot better today.
I feel like I just got off a flight with terrible turbulence – just let me at that ground, I’m gonna plant a big fat wet kiss on it!

TowardsTheLight - detail 4 - mixed media painting - depression

It’s reminded that I do have limitations, and to make sure I respect them.
But beyond that, I also have much more physical & emotional resilience than I realised.

I really am a lot more healthy than I was last year, and I have my art to thank for that.

I’m just so grateful to have found my way to where I am right now.